of some photos and more...

I know, I know.... some of you will say, ai yoh more photos of babies....
But this is my blog and she is soooo cute so why shouldn't I?

of project and 3rd bedroom...

Anyway, with wifey not around the house and CNY activities over, I have began my project to clean the house thoroughly. I know what you might be thinking. How can I clean my house during CNY period. No choice la, not much time already. I wanna make sure that the house is clean when wifey comes back with Sue Yi. I have rearranged the second bedroom (again!) and set up a small work area for myself. Most of the unused stuff on have either been junked or packed in boxes. The plan is to continue to clean up the junk in the room so that I can setup an activity area for Sue Yi when she gets older. Next step is to save up enough for an air cond unit. Any sponsors? Then there is the master bedroom, I am not sure what is the actual purpose but I think people have always been putting their mattresses under the sun when they do spring cleaning. So, the bed is now flipped up and mattress is propped up against the window to get some sun. With that, I have also effectively demoted myself to sleep in the 3rd bedroom for the next few days. Finally will be the cushion covers in the living room. Will probably do it this weekend in 2 loads. Hopefully wifey will be impressed with my handiwork on the house. It’s either that or she’ll go beserk and have to clean the house properly by herself ;)

of peaceful feeling and gas...

Sue Yi Seem to be growing fast (or at least that’s my impression). Every time I went over to see her, she will look much bigger. Probably an optical illusion, but the thing is that she never fails to give me a peaceful feeling when I see her. Something kind of like a joyful feeling when you see your loved one. Or maybe something like the feeling you get after a long flight and seeing your loved one at the arrival terminal at the airport.
Her skin seems to be fairer these days compared to the days after her bout with jaundice and her face seems to be rounder too. She is also very big on sleeping and will sleep most of the time, even when we went down to see her.

For the past few days the staff at the nursery mentioned that Sue Yi is not sleeping well at night. They suspected gas and according to them he was up crying and feeling uncomfortable throughout the night. Wifey and I also noticed that she have been having a lot of gas lately. She will burp (and fart) most of the time and gets very uncomfortable when doing so. The lady at the confinement center suggested some Chinese medicine and after wifey confirmed with her mom, we gave her the go ahead. I think it did have some effect as wifey told me that Sue Yi is not that gassy. But she still not sleeping well at night. Maybe something else is bothering her…

We also noticed soemthing about Sue Yi, everytime she wants to fart, she will push up her left knee. So i think the cue now is that if she wince and squirm and have her left knee raised up, most probably a 'poot!' will follow.

of digital camera and questions...

I know that probably I should not put this as a blog entry but I can’t help it. I was over at my mom’s place for lunch today and here’s a part of the conversation;
* Background: my mom will be going for a makan angin trip with some of my aunties next month. So my brother borrowed her his digital point and shoot camera to my not-so-tech-inclined mom.

Mom: Ask you something ah..
Me: OK
Mom: If lah, now that the camera can take 500 pictures mah.
Me: ok…
Mom: and if lah, I ah, take already 10 pictures and so there will be 490 pictures left loh. Right?
Me: ya loh
Mom: If ah, I erase 5 picture from the pictures I take already one, how many pictures still in the camera that I can take ah? 490 ah?
Me: *trying to control myself from bursting into a riotous laugh* no lah. If you erase 5 then you will have 495 pictures in the camera to take lo. If you erase one then, means you can have one more to take mah…
Mom: ooooo. So if I take picture 1, picture 2, picture 3 and so on. Then if I erase picture 2, will the photo for picture 2 come out blank ah? Will the camera know that that one I erase already and blank it?
Me: aiyah, no lah. Don’t worry lah, just take lah, the camera will know one lah.
Mom: ooooo ok *curiosity satisfied*

I guess my mom is still thinking in terms of film camera when it comes to take photos. Can’t really blame her but I got to give her credit for thinking of such creative questions.

I wonder if there will come a time I ask a similarly silly question to Sue Yi in the future…. My bet is probably I will….

of sleep and 'poot!'...

Wow! Time really flies when you are running around doing stuff. Quick check on the blog and I realized that the last entry was on Saturday. I guess with Sue Yi here, I will have less time for the computer. Not that I am complaining.
Sue Yi is doing well. She is no longer yellowish and the fairness of her skin is really showing. She sleeps a lot and I mean a lot. I can say that 9 out of 10 times that I visited her, she will be sleeping. Another good thing that I notice too is that she can sleep through noises from the surrounding. I am not sure if this will stay but I do hope that it does so that she gets lots of good sleep. Sometimes when we are feeding her, she can even fall asleep with the teat in her mouth!
The scar on her scalp (from the vacumn procedure) is healing well and the dead skin is drying up nicely. The folks at the confinement house even kept some of the dead skin that fell off and asked us if we wanted to keep them! The thrush thingy is also gone so everything looks fine.

One thing though, it seem a bit hard to get her to burp. She needs a lot of patting on her back to get her to burp and sometimes she won’t even burp. Probably the gases needs a longer time to work it’s way through. Normally, she will fall asleep immediately after (or during) meals and it will take a while for the gases to work it’s way through. She will be sleeping peacefully one minute and then wince, squirm, frown and stretch then burp. Sometimes the gases will come out through the other end and if the peace and quiet of the nursery area you’ll hear a ‘poot!’.

Wifey is doing fine in the confinement house and making some friends there. I guess it’s good too so that she will not feel too bored. I think after about 2 weeks eating all the confinement food, she’s beginning to get bored because almost every mean it will be ginger or sesame seed oil. I guess once in a while, it’s ok, but when it is every meal and every day, it’ll get a bit tiring.

Chinese new year came and went as usual. First day was taking my parents to visit relatives and distributing ang pows. The good thing about this year is that it’s no longer a total loss business for us this year as we can gain back some ‘income’ i.e. Sue Yi’s ang pows. One thing to note though is that lots of folks commented on the nice ang pows that I gave out. Actually, I think the credit goes to wifey as she has the foresight to get the ang pows, change money and pack them way way before anyone else.

I still have not opened up Sue Yi’s ang pows. I guess I’ll just hold on and wait until wifey comes back so that we can do proper accounting of our ‘income’. I think most probably we’ll open an account on Sue Yi’s behalf and dump all her money in there.

of a Godsent wife and cheesy decorations...

I have been so busy running around that i totally deprioritized on the CNY preparations. But thanks to my very wonderful wifey. most of the tough parts are taken cared of.She have changed the notes very early on and packed all the ang pows for me very well ahead a bout a month plus ago. (Isn't she God sent?)

Anyway, the one thing that we did not have is the red banner thing to put on the door frame. So, feeling the fressure and impending CNY. I went out to Sunshine square to get one. As expected all the nice ones are gone and all i managed to get is this cheesy one. It even has LEDs that lights up when you pres somewhere.

In this case i think it also pay to postpone (if you are not fussy about your deco, of course). The one i got came with a 50% discount.

of chuckie and tommy...

A few years ago, when i was at the states, i managed to get hold a doll of Chuckie (from the Rugrats fame).

I even got Angelica, the nasty girl.

even their dog Spike (?)

but the one regret that i have is that i did not manage to get Tommy. In my books, he's the main character. He's the smart one whe always comes up with the plans. As time passed, i kinda came to the conclusion that I have missed the chance (the rugrat kids have grown up now and is in another show).

Then, yesterday, my mom called me and told me that my SIL bought Sue Yi some stuff from her trip to the US. When i went over to see the package, i was estactic. One of the items in the bag was this:

YIPPEE!!!!!

Besides this, my SIL also got Sue Yi lots of cute dresses. One even has a lion theme which is really cute. I just can't wait for Sue Yi to grow up so that we can dress her up in the cute clothes. Not only that my SIL even got us the essentials, thermometer and vicks (for babies). I wonder if she's telephatic because wifey was just telling me that we might need to plan to get one of those thermometer thingy.

Thanks SIL and Bro. Do clear your calendar for one of the weekends coz, we definately owe you folks a big meal.

of cool names and wrong documents...

We took Sue Yi for her appointment with Dr. Hasanah today. She slept all the way and even at the waiting room. Dr. said that her jaundice is improving but she got thrush (?). I think it's something white on her inner tougue and upper cleft. Dr prescribed some gel but other than that she's fine.
Something interesting happened at the cashier/pharmacy though. I wan given a number to wait for Sue Yi's medicine. When my number cameand i went to the cashier, I gave her Sue Yi's medical appointment and MKC (Mutiara Kids Club) card. The cashier looked puzzeled and asked if the name should be G****, I said no and said that it should be Sophie (yea, Sue Yi's ang mo name is Sophie). She asked me a few times and i clarified again it's Sophie. then it dawned to her that she got the prescription and bill mixed up with the person before me. She gave my bill to the person before me! Wah! problem lah like that. I thought medical services should have very low DPM. Anyway, since the problem got resolve, i guess it's ok lah. Maybe will note that to the Dr. in the next appointment. I guess, this could be more serious. I told wifey that what happen if we took the other patient's medication by mistake and what if it's for rubbing on the ass or something? We could have been putting ass medicine in Sue Yi's mouth!!!!

Anyway, later, I told wifey that the incident kinda reminded me that I'm glad that we picked a kick -ass name like Sophie because when the cashier mentioned the other name (G****), it sound so plain. Don't you think so?

btw, I asteriks out most of the G**** so that i do not receive hate mails from people with that name lo.

oh ya. Sue Yi's stub from the remains of her cord dropped off today!

of birth certs and a sourpuss...

Yesterday, after taking wifey to her scheduled appointment with Dr. Tan, I went to register Sue Yi at the IC department thingy. Since it was a Thursday, there were not many people there and everything was a breeze. I even got her birth cert about 10 mins after the registration process. Yay! Sue Yi is now officially a Malaysian citizen! But one thing though, the lady that dispenses the number at the registration department gave me a real run around. When we were in the hospital after delivering, there was a representative at Pantai that helped us fill in the forms for the registration. She mentioned what documents to bring, but no need to make photocopies of them. But when i arrived at the registration department yesterday, the number lady at the counter (the one that dispenses numbers) told me that i need to make copies. Since they just recently moved into a new building and the shop that did the photocopying was still in the old building across the road. Thinking that probably there is a misunderstanding i told her that the person at Pantai told me that there is no need to make copies but this number lady told me that it's new procedure and they will need copies. So downstairs and across the road i went to make the copies. Came back and got my number. There was no one before me so i was served immediately. When the registration was done, i asked if she need the copies. She just smiled and said no. Aiyo, got duped by the number lady. Anyway, after i finished everything, i went to the number lady and told her that actually no need to make copies. Unfortunately, she just stared at me blankly. probably, she's having a bad day because throughout, she had this sour puss face anyway. But it's ok. I got what I wanted - Sue Yi's birth cert. And sourpuss is nothing to me as i can just brush her off my shoulders. Frankly speaking, I do give breaks to people if they make mistake in giving wrong info, but what i can't tolerate is the unwillingness to accept feedback.

of one for you and one for me...

Last nite wifey told me about the a conversation she had with her urut lady earlier the day.

Urut lady: Besok ah, you kena suruh suami you bawak bunga mawar kasi you tau.

Wifey: Aiya kita sudah tua la, tak buat macam itu lagi la. Lagipun besok mesti mahal punya.

Urut lady: Tak boleh.... besok ah itu date sekali dalam dua puluh lebih tahun tau. kalau bagi bunga mesti cinta sejati punya. You pun kena kasi dia bunga punya tau.

Wifey: Saya macam mana boleh pergi beli?

*and they went on*

So tonite after I ta pau my dinner i went over to the florist and got these:

One to give to wifey and one to give to wifey to give to me...

oh ya, how can i forget my ta pau'ed dinner

Anyway, happy valentines to all. may you enjoy this day with the ones you love. i know i did.

of one week and Valentine's day...

Dear Sue Yi,
Today marks the first week you came out into this world. A lot of things have happened and I have personally see you grew so much during this past one week.
You are a curious and inquisitive girl who will look at everything whenever you open your eyes. You fall asleep easily in my arms J and seem to have an affinity for my arm pit! You like to stretch out whenever you feel uncomfortable. Rubbing your legs will make you relax in your sleep. You also like to pout you lips.
A lot of things have also happened throughout the week. For one you were born into the world. And then there is the trip to the confinement house and back to the hospital due to jaundice. I guess the excursion back to the hospital is somewhat of a blessing (although an expensive one!) because at least mommy and I know that you are in good hands. Besides that, I have also managed to learn a few things from the nurses while you were there. So I guess every cloud does has it’s silver lining.
Today is also Feb 14th which is Valentine’s day. A day people celebrate with their loved ones and I think it is really appropriate too for us as you are now doing fine and is now back together with mommy.

So Happy Birthday my princess!

Love,
daddy

of levels and pinch of being a parent...

After 5 days of tanning, Sue Yi was discharged from the hospital today. According to the doctor, the level has gone down and she has probably gone through her cycle. Her level (don’t ask me what the level indicate but all I know is that it meant the severity of the jaundice) was at 255 when we brought her in on Saturday. It went up a bit on Sunday 280+ and then went down to 220 on Monday. Today it was at 209 and the doctor said that it is ok got her to go home. Yippee!
I managed to have a lot of quality time with her while she was in the hospital. As whenever I held her, I hummed random tunes so that she can veer the vibrations on my chest. I think she must have loved it because she will fall asleep peacefully when I do that. I also notices more and more about her reactions when I touched her at different areas. She will stir in her sleep if I put my finger on her chest and make faces if I rubbed her arm for too long. But best of all she will smile when I palm my hand over her body. Too bad I did not manage to get a picture of that as she will stop as soon as I remove my hand.
I went to see her throughout the Sunday morning, afternoon and evening. She was ‘upgraded’ to top and bottom lamp due to the higher levels on Sunday. That seem to have improved her condition as her levels went down on Monday.
Every time I went to see her, I tried to time my visit so that I will arrive either before or during feeding time. I want to make sure that I will not disturb her as much as possible, plus want to get a first hand learning from the nurses on feeding Sue Yi. Unfortunately, my timing was out. The few times that I went, they have either just fed her or about to put her back under the light thing.
My very lucky break came on Monday night. It was a slow night at the nursery as Sue Yi is the only baby there and the two nurses were there. I arrived just as they were starting to give her milk. So I asked the nurse to let me try, but sue yi was a bit cheeky, she went straight to sleep when I hold her even when I manage to put the teat in she will not suckle. One of the nurse said that probably it’s because she have poot poot’ed and needs a diaper change. So the other nurse did that. With fresh diapers on the butt, Sue Yi started to suckle again. I felt a sense of accomplishment although it’s a simple act, I’m happy that I managed to do that. Then I got to chat with the nurses and they shared a few tips on caring for Sue Yi. They also taught me how to burp her properly. Nothing like first hand info from the pros. We also chatted about other stuff like confinement house and baby names etc. It was fun chatting with them but I think it also benefited Sue Yi and me as I want her to hear me talking so that she can further imprint on my voice.
Anyway, I went to see her again at 10am this morning because I know that Dr Hasanah will be making her rounds at that time. She wasn’t at the nursery when I arrived, but the good nurses there called her at her office. She came over a while later and checked on Sue Yi. Then she said the magic words, her levels have gone down and she have been in the nursery for 5 (~ 1 cycle of the jaundice) days, so she can go!

And the price for that whole excursion? rm1K. I think I am beginning to feel the pinch of being a parent.

of standing ovations and no memory of pain...

Some updates.
Sue Yi is back at the hospital due to jaundice. Dr. Tan told wifey on Friday morning that Sue is a bit yellowish but Dr Hasanah (Paed) discharged her anyway as Sue still look OK at that time. When the govt nurse visited wifey and Sue Yi at the confinement house she said that Sue Yi is a bit yellow and probably should send to the hospital ‘bagi kasi lampu’. But she also mentioned to leave her at the confinement home for the night and see what happens. Saturday morning, she still look yellowish and we immediately decided to bring her back to the hospital to be checked by Dr Hasanah. I must say that the confinement house folks really know their stuff. When they heard that we are going to take Sue Yi to the hospital, they fed her, changed nappies, and dressed her up. They even packed a bag with extra nappies and 3 servings of milk powder.
I guess Sue Yi is a bit cheeky, while waiting for Dr at the hospital, she farted a few times right there into my palm! Initially I thought she poot poot’ed but turned out to be just gas.
Anyway, Dr took blood samples from her (a most excruciatingly painful experience for wifey and I) and later mentioned that she have to be admitted. So back to the nursery we went. By the time we were done, it’s already 1pm plus and we had to send wifey back to the confinement house. Later that night when I was chatting with wifey, we both talked about how it felt strange to have Sue Yi at the hospital. It feels really odd to have us there (at the confinement house) and Sue Yi far away at the hospital. Although, brain tells us that she is in good hands, the heart still worries for her.
I visited Sue Yi at the nursery before going to see wifey in the evening. She looks less yellowish. I timed my visit so that it will be feeding time for her when I get there so that she don’t have to be disturbed. Unfortunately, she woke up early and the nurse is already about to finish feeding her. I held and cuddled her for about 30 mins checking her head (vacuum mark) and everything else I can check. I am also beginning to learn of her responses to touched at different places. She also did something funny, while in my arms she tried to snuggle her head near my armpit and opened her mouth as if she is trying to suckle. I am not sure what she is trying to do but she seem to have developed an liking for my armpit. She did that earlier in the day while waiting for Dr. Hasanah and she did it again that evening. Probably she is trying to imprint my scent.
I’ll be visiting her again today. Let’s hope that she recovers well and can be discharged so that she can be with wifey. I really cannot get used to the idea of having her there away from us at the hospital.


Tim and Emily were co cute and cheeky. They visited wifey after we delivered Sue Yi. When wifey were wheeled from the labor room to the ward, they stood on attention and clapped for wifey. A standing ovation! Tim even instructed me and my mom to clap! The nurse also mentioned to wifey that she’s a celebrity.


Wifey told me something very profound while we were in the ward before she was discharged. Se mentioned that although God make you feel pain during delivery, He will also take it away and also erase the memory of the pain. She said that she can’t remember the pain and how it feels like. She can just remember that there is great pain but that’s all, no memories of the pain itself. I wonder if other mothers also have that experience.

Wifey had to change room at the confinement house yesterday. She was initially put into a room together with another mommy in a person room, but the other mommy kept asking wifey why the people at the confinement house did not open up a new room for her. Not once but every time she sees wifey. So wifey got pissed and told the people at the confinement house to be put into another room with 2 other mommies. I mean if she is not welcomed in that room, then why stay.
Anyway, it worked out better for wifey. In the 3 person room, one is a new mother who came in at the same time as wifey while another is a 3rd time mommy (the pro) who is nearing the end of her confinement. The pro is very helpful and informative. According to wifey, she shared and taught them a lot of good knowledge. So I guess it turnout to be a blessing for wifey.

of photos and more photos...

some photos for the day...

of big adventures and my home...

Dear Sue,
At one day old yesterday, you were already letting us in a bit of your personality. Mommy and I noticed that even though you cry at times, you seem to calm down when we hold you liked to be held and I am proud to say that you really seem to enjoy being in my arms. I caught you smiling at me a few times when I held you and you seem to like to look at me.
We have also discovered what works for you and what don’t. Palming and rubbing your chest calms you and rubbing your cheeks will make you relax. You also like to pout your lips, especially your lower right lip. You also like to make small cooing sounds and sometimes mumbles in your sleep. I wonder what you are dreaming about. Sweet memories of cozying up in mommy’s womb perhaps.
You are still not latching on to mommy but we know that you do try. At times you will try to latch on but sometimes you totally ignored mommy. Then there are times when you just held her there but there are also a few times that you bit mommy.
We also noticed that you are one very inquisitive girl. You like to open your eyes and peep out at the world around you. Whenever mommy and I talk, your eyes will look towards the direction of the person who is talking and if there are other babies in the nursery crying, you will be looking around especially from the direction the crying came from. We do know that at this stage your eyes can’t see far, but we know for sure that in due time you will grow up into a person with great vision (literally and figuratively)

Today, you had your first big adventure. You and mommy were discharged from the hospital. We were initially a bit unsure if you can be discharged as mommy mentioned that Dr Tan told her in the morning that you have a bit of jaundice, but when we checked later with Dr Hasanah, you were given the green light. The friendly nurse at the nursery dressed you up in your new clothes and got you all prettied up for your big adventure. After the nurse explained some stuff to mommy, we were off on our journey, you riding comfortably in my arms!. First destination, mommy’s ward, to get our stuff. I guess the trip must be a bit too much too soon for you as you started to hiccup. I tried to calm you down, but your hiccups continued. Being the doofus and worry wart that I am, I quickly took you back to the nursery and asked the nurse, what’s wrong. The patient and polite nurse explained that it was probably just gas as she had fed you before your adventure. She patted your back a while and then passed you back to me. Back in mommy’s ward, you were still having hiccups, so I did what the nurse demonstrated. And for my effort you rewarded me with a good and solid burps. I guess parenting does make me look at things differently, else why would a simple bodily reaction such as a burp can be so significant to me?
The next leg of our adventure today is the trip to the confinement home. You rode with mommy in the back seat and in the first few kilometers of the journey, mommy keep telling me of how your eyes wonders around to check out your surroundings. I guess you are just assessing the big world out there and the huge potential that it has to offer you. and when it’s yours for the taking, I will be there to support you.
The journey must have been a bit long for you as you fell asleep halfway through. I think I got to take some blame for the long journey as I was driving ever so slowly to ease up any bumps on the road. I can’t remember the last time I was so focused on my driving.
We got to the confinement house sometime around 2.45pm and you were brought immediately into the nursery. The staff there immediately change you into another set of clothes while mommy and I did the registration paperwork. After a bit of crying, you dozed back into your slumber. Probably dreaming about the big adventure you just had.

As for me, after mommy and I checked in into her room, I left for home. I must say that although it seems that I am leaving you and mommy for home, it really does not feels like home that I am going to. It is not that I don’t like out house but somehow, at that moment, it just do not feel like home. Home feels more like the confinement house that I am leaving from. It feels more like my place is there, my comfort is there. My home. I guess my only explanation is that a home is where your loved ones are at and two of the most important people in my life is there. Probably leaving to anywhere that they are not at will never feel like ‘going home’. I am not sure if you are able to grasp what I am saying when you read this but I guess the best way to put it is that you are one part of where my heart lies. At times, you might not know it or see it but it’s there.

One day, I hope and pray that you will find your ‘home’ and that mommy and I are there because you already are where our ‘home’ is at.

Love and Hugs,
Pops

of the day a star fell from the sky and landed in my arms...

Dear Sue,
It’s barely 12 hours since you came into the world and hare am I awake in the early hours of the morning and already missing you. It’s 4.50am and my mind won’t let me go to sleep. I keep thinking of you and mommy. I guess I am being a bit selfish and silly here because my mind wants to think about you all the time and I would lose that if I fall asleep. Silly me.
Anyway, you came into the world at around 4.45pm yesterday (7th February) weighing at 3kg and here’s your journey. It all started at around 2.45am yesterday when mommy noticed that she is ‘leaking’ after peeing. According to her she called me a few times but I was sound asleep. She eventually woke me up and told me that the water has broke but she did not feel any contractions. So we thought that we would wait a while and see if the contractions came. None came and mommy told me that she is still feeling fine but she continues to ‘leak’. We decided that if nothing happens we will go to the hospital first thing in the morning.
By around 7 am we were already at the hospital. The nurse at the delivery room told me to go down and register while the checks on mommy. When I came back to the see mommy, she is already in the labor room. That’s when the waiting starts. Mommy still did not feel any pain even until Dr Tan came in at some time past 9am and asked to put in those IV drip thingy. That’s when mommy started to feel the contractions. It came every 5 minutes which later on progressed to 3 minutes. But according to the nurse who is monitoring mommy, the contractions are not at a regular interval, fluctuating between 2 to 5 minutes.
It pains my heart to see mommy in pain and it pained even more when I could not do anything more to relieve her pain other than coaching her on her breathing and holding her hand.
The pain went on throughout the whole morning and lasted into the afternoon. By around 3pm, the nurses checked on mommy and said that she is already at 9cm and is ready to deliver. According to mommy, the contractions were more intense. I remembered giving you a pat on mommy’s tummy to wish you a safe journey. Mommy was also urging you to come out and we were telling you that there are so many things waiting for you out here. By around 3.30pm the nurses have already preparing mommy and beginning to urge her to push. I was asked to stand outside the room at that time and that must have been the most unbearable time that I cam remember. When I got back into the room, the nurses told me that you are already moving and your head is only a few inches away. Dr. Tan came in at around 4pm and did a quick check. He encouraged mommy to continue and went off to do his rounds. Seeing him relaxed gave us a calming effect. Mommy told me before that his strong voice reassures her whenever he speaks and I do agree because do feel reassured too whenever we speak to him. Anyway, he pulled me aside and told me he will use the vacumn suction thingy to help you on your way out. I guess this is where the learning from the ante natal class kicks in because I have at least some understand of what he said. I guess I would have freaked out (given the situation) if I were do not know what he meant.
Back in the delivery room, mommy is still pushing the best that she can but you seem to be reluctant to come out. I think we did 2 tries with the vacumn and you still would not budge. On the third time, mommy pushed again and I can see your head appearing. Mommy was out breath but she keep on pushing and finally your whole head came out followed by your whole body.
According to Dr Tan, you were in an OP position. I didn't quite know what he meant but according to him, most babies were born with their face pointing downward. You on the other hand was facing skywards when you came out from mommy. According to him, this could have contributed to your difficulty in coming out. Now that you are here safe and sound, all those are gibberish to me.

You looked so small and tiny and I just couldn’t believe my eyes. Seeing all the blood and mess, I was a bit panicked but I guess the Doctor and nurses knows what they are doing. I gave mommy a kiss and told her that she did a good job. I stayed with mommy for a while the nurses took you out, I guess to clean you. I can hear your cries from the labor room. I know that in time to come, my feeling about this will change, but your cries sound so soothing and calming.
A while later the nurse came over and told me that I can see you. I don’t know how to describe the feeling when I saw you but I can bet you that it is one of the best feelings that I think a human being can ever have. Then the nurse let me hold you and carry you. You seem so comfortable there and your crying stopped immediately. You seem so comfortable in my arms as if my arms are made just to hold you. Everything seem to fit in the right place. Every fold in my arms seems to have been there exactly at the right place for your limbs. From then on I knew that it is meant to be. It’s not by chance and everything seems so planned out.
You were brought in to see mommy later and I can hear mommy humming tunes to you while I spoke to the doctor. Mommy seem so happy to see you and she later told me that she remembers the feeling that some of her friends told her about holding her baby for the first time. She called it tremendous joy, and I know what she mean. I know that it’s selfish to say this but I guess it must be one of those feelings that are reserved for parents.

You were only 3kg when you came into this world, but if the joy and all the emotions you gave me can be measured, there will be no scale in this world that can measure them.

Welcome to this world Sue Yi, mommy and I look forward to the moments that you’ll spend with us and us with you.

Love,
Your old man

of the bestest feeling in the world...

It has been a long day today, but i am not complaining. My day started at 2.45am this morning when wifey woke me up to tell me that her water bag broke. It's now 9.42pm and i just got back from the hospital.

Here's the result that we got at the end of the day. Everyone stand up and say hi to Sue Yi!















it's been a long day. I'll do a longer blog entry later.

update:
Wifey and I yould like to thank everyone who have supported and prayed for us. We do truly believe that it will be messier, more painful and unbearable, more stressful and noisier if it hadn't been for your support and prayers. Do continue to pray for us as we step into this new world with Sue Yi.

of single digits and anticipation...

We are now down to single digits. According to lilypie.com we are now 9 days to go. I am getting pretty excited. Somehow it feels like every moment I have I need to spend with wifey so that I can be there when she needs me.
Wifey have already packed the stuff that she will be needing for the hospital and confinement house. She have also packed a few extra things and labeled them just in case she needs me to bring to her during her stay at the confinement house.
Seeing the bags and stuff that she packed makes me feel like I am missing her already. I hope I can survive the 1 month that she’ll be away.
Wifey is also showing signs that girl girl is coming. Her tummy is now really pointed out sort of like dome shaped. That is putting her in a bit of discomfort as it made it a bit harder for her when she sleep.
Girl girl still kept to her preference to sleep of the right side and it really shows. At times wifey’s tummy will look like it is bulging on one side when girl girl is doing that.
I am also getting pretty excited as the day approaches, but I think the good thing is that the feeling did not really overwhelm me to the point that I get panicky.
So again, do pray for us. Pray for wifey’s strength and prey for girl girl’s safe arrival.

of dinners and rewards...

Wifey and I just came back from dinner with my parents, my brother's and sister's family. It's a somewhat tradition thingy on my side of the family that the person celebrating his/her birthday will have to buy dinner. I dunno how it started but i guess it't just one of thoise things that came up spontanueously and everyone just followed. Having lulled into this long time ago, i have never really thought much about it, but when i met wifey, she mentioned that it's odd, but in a nice way kind of odd.
Anyway, today it's my turn to buy everyone dinner. We had a simple one at double good, which coincidently was a few doors away from dr tan's clinic. Now that i thought of it, I think it is fair and appropriate for the person celebrating the birthday to buy everyone dinner. Something sort of like a bribereward for putting up with you for another year. But i think most significantly it's appropriate for the children to buy their parents dinner when you put into perspective that a person's birthday is also the day when the person's mother suffers one of the most painful experience she can ever feel => childbirth. SO, yeah, i think it's fair that my mom and dad had second helping of rice just now.

foot note:my brother inadvertently raised the benchmark for me tonight. He tied emily's hair so nicely that wifey have set the same expectation to me...

of appointment and red alert...

We went for our usual appointment with Dr Tan again tonight and again we were unable to see girl girl's face. According to Dr, she is in a curled up position and facing the back. Dr Tan also mentioned that girl girl's head is now engaged. I don't quite know what that was but i think it could mean that her head in positioned in wifey's pelvis now.
Dr Tan also said that wifey can deliver any time now!!! so i guess we are now officially on red alert. So do pray for us especially for wifey to have a safe and comfortable delivery. Also, do pray for girl girl's safe journey into this wonderful earth.

One thing though, Dr Tan seems to keep refering to girl girl like she is a boy. Do you think we are in for a surprise?